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  Without even realizing it, my mouth opens. “I’m sorry, Jake… I’m so sorry. I can’t date you. I can’t because as much as I want to be able to say I’d give you the chance you deserve… I can’t… I can’t becau–– because I’ve already made my choice.”

  His breathing hitches and he says sadly, “Yeah, I figured. Good luck, Summer… Watch yourself. I hope you don’t get hurt. See you on stage.” He hangs up.

  I can’t breathe as I stare at Sean. He’s no longer in the doorway of my office. As I confessed my feelings to Jake, he’s crossed the room and is now standing right in front of me staring down at me with eyes so full of emotion they’re almost pulsing.

  Oh my God… I just did that. I just ran full speed ahead to the edge of a cliff and blindly jumped off…

  Sean

  She just ended things with Jake.

  She picked me…

  I’m her choice. ME!

  She picked me. Even after this afternoon and everything she said, she picked me.

  She said she couldn’t do this, but she just told Jake that she picked me.

  I’m looming over her as she leans back on the couch. Her hair is fanned out against the back and she’s staring up at me with confusion, stark terror, and desire clearly displayed on her face. The phone falls from her limp hand and bounces on the couch cushion. She doesn’t even move.

  I growl down at her to make certain that what I heard her say is actually what she meant. “Did you just end things with Jake?”

  She nods and her curls cascade around her shoulders as it slides from the back of the couch. She’s breathless. “I did… I just told him I couldn’t date him…”

  My nostrils flare and my hands clench as I try to beat back the urge to yank her up and into my body. “Why? Because you want to date me?!” Her eyes are hazy as she stares at me as if she’s unsure of what to do or say. My voice is harsher than I intend as I demand she answer me. “Me? You want me, Summer?”

  She blinks and nods. “I do. I want you, Sean.”

  She wants me! She said she couldn’t do this, but she wants me.

  Time to man up, Sean.

  This is too important to fuck up.

  Reaching down, I grasp her arms and pull her to her feet. She falls against me and my arms wrap around her to steady her. Her hands clutch at my shoulders as she stares into my eyes. I can see all of the fear in them.

  What is she scared of? Me? Being with me? Me fucking this up?

  With no effort, I lift her. She’s so small next to me. Something comes over me and I just want to protect her. Her knees curl around my waist and I turn to sit on the couch with her in my lap. I want to look at her while we hash this out. We need to be on an even plain.

  Well, she’s on my lap and my dick is screaming at me to strip her naked, but we’ll get to that in a bit.

  She exhales shakily and blushes. “Ok, I’ve said I want you, but you didn’t say anything…”

  What? I didn’t say anything?

  What does she want me to say?!

  Leaning forward, my forehead presses to hers and I smile. My eyebrow ring is pressing into her skin. Her eyes are wide and innocent as she stares at me. Finally, I breathe. She shivers in response to my warm breath caressing her lips and I smile bigger. “Summer, I want you. You know that.”

  She nods. “I know you want to sleep with me…”

  I frown. “Yeah, I want to sleep with you… but I also want you. Today was supposed to be about me showing you that I want so much more from you than just to sleep with you.” I sigh and lean my head back on the couch, but angle my head so I can still watch her. “Of course the zoo didn’t really help my cause. Look, the thing is… I can’t say that’s not going to happen again. It very well might. In fact, it probably will. You saw what happened when Rafe and Daisy started dating. We all did. And me… well, I’m worse than Rafe was.” I grimace as her back tightens and her thigh muscles clench around my waist. She’s tense, but I’d rather get all of this out in the open right now. Moving my hands up her sides, I cup her face and hold her head so she’s looking at me. “Summer, if you decide to do this with me… you’re going to have to understand that shit is going to come out about me that you’re not going to like. I’ve been with a lot of women. I had sex with two of them just two nights ago…”

  She gasps and tries to climb off my lap, but I hold her on me. She shakes her head and my hands fall to her shoulders, but I don’t move them. I don’t want her to leave.

  This sucks. For the first time, I’m ashamed about all of the women I’ve fucked.

  Summer could tell me to leave her alone right now and I would have no choice but to do it. She would have the right.

  Dammit, Sean!

  I didn’t even want to fuck those women the other night. I was just pissed off…

  So, I did!

  “Summer, stop. I know you’re upset and I am sorry. I was pissed because I’d seen you kissing Jake and my way to deal with anger is sex… Hell, my way to deal with everything is sex.” I frown. “It’s what I do, Summer. I’m not making excuses or trying to get you to understand… you can’t… you won’t. You’re right. I did screw almost everything. My only requirements were that they had to be pretty, available, and legal. I’m not proud of that. In fact, for the first time, seeing the look on your face right now… I’m ashamed that I was so easy.” My eyes implore her. “I don’t know how to date anyone. I’ve never had a relationship. But, I want a relationship with you. You can help me… If you’re willing, we can do this, Summer. I want to do this. But, it’s kind of not up to me…”

  She’s not at all happy. Her nose is wrinkled and her eyes are flashing as she looks down at me. Her mouth is pursed so tightly it’s white. I have no idea if she’s going to shove off me or give me a chance. That uncertainty has me feeling like I’m drowning.

  For the longest time, we just stare at each other.

  The honest to God truth is that I’m completely at her mercy. For the first time in my twenty-six years, I’m not in control of what’s happening in my own life.

  She has the reins here. She decides what fork in the road we take. We can do one of two things… We can turn onto a new road and try out this being in a relationship thing and travel it together. I know that I’ll mess up. I’ll piss her off. I’ll probably hurt her with something stupid unintentionally more than once, but I’m willing to try anything…

  Or, we can go back to being tour mates and nothing more. Then, I get to see her with every other Jake that comes along… and they’ll be more. She’s too special to stay single. I’ll go back to fucking everything in a skirt and caring about none of them. Hell, I’ll probably act more reckless and do more stupid things just because the sight of Summer with anyone else is going to make me surly and rash.

  So, what’ll it be, Summer?!

  Her eyes are centered on mine and she’s not blinking as she watches me. I can see her working everything out in her mind. Her face conveys her emotions.

  Finally, she sighs. I’m about to crawl out from under her and head somewhere to nurse my wounds and pride. Her head angles and she leans over me. My pulse accelerates and I forget how to breathe.

  Her lips brush against mine and she gently bites my lip ring before pulling it. My cock immediately responds but I’m focused on her face.

  She smiles at me and shrugs slightly. “Ok.”

  As I pull back, I dislodge my lip ring from her mouth. A sharp pain shoots through my mouth, but I brush it aside and ask, “Ok, what?!”

  Her elbow lands next to my head and she leans her cheek into her palm so she can look down at me. Her nose crinkles as she smiles and her eyes twinkle. “Ok, I think I’m willing to try out a relationship with you.”

  I inhale and jerk. She bounces on me and almost falls off my lap. My hands settle on her hips as she chuckles. “Whoa now… But we have to go over some ground rules, Sean.”

  Ground rules?

  Whatever she wants, she can have it.
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  Chapter Ten

  Summer

  Sean looks surprised that I just said ok.

  Did he think I was going to shoot him down? If so, he’s an idiot. I just told a very attractive man that I actually liked that I couldn’t date him because I had already fallen for someone else… HIM!

  I meant what I said though…

  We have some ground rules to go over, Sean.

  Sean finally blinks before he nods. “Ok, so what are these ground rules?” He sits up and straightens as his arms tighten around my waist… Kind of like he doesn’t want me to leave.

  My own hands curve around his shoulder to steady myself. It’s like I’m on a mechanical bull right now and I really don’t want to face plant on the couch in an undignified heap.

  Anchoring myself on him, I push back enough so that I can look into his eyes. He needs to know I’m extremely serious. “Ok, so we’re what? Dating now? Are we dating Sean?”

  He nods. “Damn right.”

  My heart flutters at his words, but I try to quell the sensation and not give away how excited that makes me. “We’re dating… that means that you don’t touch anyone else.” I pin him with my intense gaze. “I mean it. You do not touch anyone else, Sean. No kissing. No petting. No blow jobs. No hand jobs. No nudity. No sex.”

  Did I just say that out loud?

  Dear God… I never thought as a grown woman I would ever have to say that.

  He nods and tries to cover a smirk. I slap him in the chest. “No, don’t smirk. I’m serious!”

  He chuckles and shakes his head. I scream in my throat and he says, “Ok, Summer. I will not touch anyone else.” His face gets serious and he mutters, “But you know that I can’t exactly stop people from touching me, right?!” I glare at him. “No, I’m being serious, Summer. You’ve seen our fans. You’ve seen how they are. We have security and they try, you know that. But, if someone touches me, you can’t blame me…”

  Shit! He’s right.

  Their fans are slutty, wanton bitches with no moral compass. Ok, not all of them, but he’s right, some of them only see the guys as pieces of meat to be groped and touched.

  I can’t get mad at him for that. I can get mad… just not at him.

  I nod. “I know. Ok, I won’t get mad at you if they touch you. But you cannot touch anyone…”

  He laughs and nods. “Deal. I won’t touch anyone but you… Same goes for you, sweetheart. No more kissing roadies.

  “Now do we have any other ground rules or can we now talk about touching, kissing, petting, hand jobs, blow jobs, nudity, and sex between you and me?”

  Oh shit… I’m not kissing anyone else…

  We can certainly talk about those other things, but I had more rules, right?!

  I think I did…

  I know I did…

  Mock glaring at him, I groan. “I couldn’t handle more than one man at a time.” I shudder. “Jesus, the past two days have practically killed me.”

  He grins. “Good.” Leaning up, he kisses me. His lips are soft, but firm and he nibbles against mine. I willingly open for him and his tongue slips past my teeth to tease mine before he licks my teeth. I shudder as my nipples bead and my hands curl into his shirt to hold on for dear life.

  His kiss turns my bones to liquid and I press tightly against him. His cock is rigid beneath me and he lightly thrusts against the apex of my thighs. It causes me to moan into his mouth. His hands leave my hips and trail up my sides. The sides of his hands brush against the undersides of my breasts before he caresses my bare shoulders and cups my nape to pull my head closer to his. My hands leave his shoulders and weave into the deep blue tresses of his hair.

  We’re both groaning and rubbing against each other. We’re so consumed by passion that our sighs and moans are bouncing around the room. The sun is starting to set and the colors are reflected throughout the room.

  Sean’s lips leave mine to trail down my chin and neck. He sucks on my pulse point before lightly biting the area where my neck meets my shoulder. My head falls back and I moan as his lips caress my skin like butterfly wings and the coolness of his lip ring teases my hot skin. My hair is no longer pulled up and is swaying at my back and covering my thighs.

  Turning my head, I see the light from the hallway peeking in through the still cracked door. Pushing off Sean, I smile as he groans in protest and cracks his eye to look at me in question. Shimmying to a standing position, I wink at him. “Be right back. I don’t want Mrs. Raina to hear us.” My hips sway beneath my jeans as I walk to the door and pull it closed before turning the lock. It seems to echo in the room.

  Taking a deep breath, I turn back to Sean and my breath catches as I take him in. He’s sprawled back on my couch with the window and the colors of the sunset as a backdrop behind him. His legs are spread and his erection is very obvious as it presses against the dark denim covering his legs and thighs. His white Affliction shirt fits him just right. It’s tight enough to showcase his trim physique without being so tight he looks ridiculous. His tattoos and piercings are in shadow but still visible and the blue of his hair is so dark, it looks like the ocean. His eyes are blazing as he watches me.

  Walking slowly toward him, I reach for the hem of my flowy tank top and slowly raise it over my head before dropping it to the floor behind me. Sean gasps as his eyes rake over me. My bra is royal blue lace and cups my chest while also lifting my breasts. Taking another deep breath for courage, I reach for the clasp of my jeans and exhale as I release it. Sean bolts upright and swallows.

  Toeing off my shoes, I kick them to the side and shimmy to work the denim over my hips before pushing it down my legs and leaning down to pull them over both feet.

  I’ve never really undressed like this for a man before. I’m so nervous. But, my heart is also racing because I can see that Sean is liking what he’s seeing.

  He would know… He’s seen so many women…

  Stop it, Summer. Don’t bring them into this.

  This is you and Sean, no one else.

  After standing back up, I just stop about a foot in front of him. His nostrils are flaring and his lip ring disappears between his lips as he gnaws on it. His hands are clenching and unclenching at his sides on the couch.

  I don’t know what to do next…

  Sean

  Summer is stripping for me.

  An hour ago I wasn’t sure what the hell was happening in my life and now, Summer is stripping in front of me and we’re dating?!

  I agreed… no, I ASKED Summer to date me and she agreed.

  I, Sean Scott, asked a woman to commit to me in a monogamous relationship…

  And now… she’s almost naked in front of me.

  My throat feels like someone is squeezing it. I can’t get enough air. Summer’s bra and the matching panties are the same color as my hair.

  Did she plan that?!

  She’s just standing there like she’s waiting for me to do something… I haven’t said a word.

  I don’t have the ability to speak coherently right now.

  Maybe she’s unsure on what to do.

  Reaching out, I hold my hand out to her. She looks down at it and then lightly places hers against my palm. My fingers close around her hand and I pull her slowly to me. When she’s between my knees, I stop and trail my hands up her arms before trailing them down her chest and stomach and gripping her hips. My hands fit around her curves perfectly.

  She gasps as I lean forward and place an open mouthed kiss above her belly button before dipping my tongue into it and pulling on the silver jeweled stud sitting there with my teeth. Goosebumps appear under my hands and lips. Her hands cradle my head, pulling me into her stomach.

  My lips leave a trail from her belly button to her hip before crossing over and leaving another trail all the way to the other hip. Her nails rake my scalp as I press light kisses all over her soft skin.

  Finally, I lean back and look up at her. Her eyes are luminous and aroused as she looks down at me. �
�Summer, I want you. I can’t stand it… Let me have you… I need to take you… to taste you… I want you.”

  She nods. “You can have whatever you want, Sean.”

  Blood roars through my veins at her words. My cock pulses under the tight denim and I growl as I pull her over me. Before she can even squeal, I’ve flipped her onto her back on the couch and I’m kneeling between her legs on the floor. She gasps, “Sean…”

  My mouth licks her through the lace of her panties and I pull the cups of her bra down, so her breasts can fill my hands. She bucks and moans as her nipples touch my palms.

  She squirms and manages to reach around her back to unhook the clasp. The lace loosens and together, we discard the bra. My fingers roll her nipples before lightly pulling on them and she moans while her legs part farther. I’m pressing kisses against her pussy through the wet lace as my hands slide down her sides to grasp the blue lace at her hips. Her head lifts and she watches me as I peel the panties down her legs and throw them over my shoulder. She’s completely nude on the couch, spread out before me.

  My eyes drink her in for a second. My hand cups her mound and I groan at the heat radiating from it. She gasps, bites her lip, and moans as she looks down her body at me.

  Leaning up, I slip a finger into her pussy and start to finger her slowly. Her thighs sprawl wide open and her hands cup her breasts as she watches me finger her. The look on her face has my ready to yank off my pants and sink into her, but I want to pleasure her first. I have to watch myself pleasure her.

  Looking down, I watch my finger disappear inside of her. I add another finger and my blood burns as I feel her clenching around them. Watching both of my fingers slide in and out of Summer’s body is making me so hot. “Oh baby, watching your body accept and pull at me… God, that’s so hot.”

  She groans and thrusts against my hand. I need a closer look. Leaning into her pussy, I watch as her muscles clench and unclench around my fingers. Her smell wafts up and tickles my nose. I wanted this to last, but I don’t know how long I can bank my desire for her.

  I need her to come.